Long time coming

A whole 34!

On the 5th of April, mere hours after celebrating my 34th birthday, I embarked on a profound journey. This decision carries immense weight as it marks my departure from a residence I’ve called home for three and a half years. Moreover, it signifies my resolve to shed burdensome habits and behavior that no longer serve me.

I‘ve experienced a whirlwind in every facet of my life. My romantic life is practically non-existent, or rather, it exists but falls short of my expectations. Family dynamics have been strained, and despite efforts to reconcile, I find solace in moving forward without their support and accepting the repercussions from some members. Friendships have evolved; some have naturally drifted apart; a process I embrace. Conversely, others are being consciously rekindled, infusing new meaning into these connections. I’m also cultivating fresh friendships, aiming to reciprocate the positivity I receive, and navigating towards wholesome, purposeful relationships.

No, my work is far from being in disarray, and for that, I’m grateful to God. Since assuming the role of office manager, I’ve never felt more at ease in a position. It seems tailor-made for me. In just a year and a half, I’ve already left my mark and foresee abundant opportunities ahead. Our bosses have fostered one of the most conducive working environments imaginable, leaving nothing more to be desired. Shortly, I plan to return to school. Within six months, I was entrusted with the role of a money laundering reporting officer, a responsibility I’m fully committed to. Additionally, I derive immense satisfaction from overseeing our foundation, which supports a children’s club in education, arts, and sports.

Abusing alcohol is a challenge I’m prepared to confront head-on. I’ve been actively seeking methods to diminish my reliance on alcohol as a coping mechanism. It was a revelation when I admitted aloud that I’ve never remained sober for an entire month since starting college at Cooperative College University. While I cherish my time at Coop, it’s been over a decade, and I’m eager to explore new hobbies to fill the void left by alcohol and rediscover joy in healthier pursuits.

I’m aiming to cultivate interests from my youth, such as writing, reading, painting, and photography, along with newer hobbies like cooking and discovering new restaurants, whether alone or with friends. I’m eager to delve into writing about topics I’m passionate about and find purpose in, sharing my experiences to educate others. I’m overcoming my fear of solo outings, recognizing that waiting for company may lead to missed opportunities. Each month, I’ll maintain a log of my planned activities and whether they come to fruition.

Self-awareness is another subject I’m eager to explore, delving into what motivates me and how I can effectively manage it. I aim to understand and address my triggers, striving to evolve personally for the benefit of those who have consistently shown me unconditional love and understanding. I’m prepared to tackle difficult topics to gain insight into myself and potentially reshape my perspective on life.

My health has taken a turn for the worse; I find myself gasping for breath after just climbing a single flight of stairs as if I’ve just completed a ten-mile run. Additionally, my clothes no longer fit properly. This realization prompts me to consider rebranding myself from the youthful and immature girl I once was to the woman I am evolving into. This transformation encompasses various aspects of my life, including my living situation, wardrobe choices, and how I interact with others.

I established this blog as a channel for creativity, envisioning it as a future platform where individuals can share their life experiences through writing, anonymous storytelling, or both. I anticipate inspiring those who have faced adversity and found ways to persevere and find peace. While I used to wait for success to lend encouragement, I now realize that every breath is an opportunity for success. I am a survivor, and this is my story, whats yours?